Cry

There are times
When I want to cry
But I find no more tears to shed
My soul lifeless and dry

There are times
When I want to die
May be, may be only then
Will I able to live again

Coz I want to live
I dont, I dont, I dont want to die
At least not like this
With no more tears in my eye

The mess that I have become

Should I accept it
Or should I feign

Why doesnt it wash away
in this pouring rain?

Trying to move on
But still lagging

Look at myself
the reflection sagging

What to do?
Whom to blame?

Will I ever
Be again the same?

Maybe I will
or may be not

Crazy antics
lunatic thoughts

How to recover
regain sanctum

How to undo this mess,
The mess that I have become.

Strangers

My smile begins to waver
My vision starts to blur
As I remember those early days
When life was so careless

You seemed like a friendly chap
And I called you out
Your eyes were innocent, smile mischievous
And I realised, I want to be close, to you

So I pretended not to know
The little pain in my soul
When did you become so precious to me?
I do not know, I do not know

Now I laugh and frolick
More than the usual
A carefree boisterous person
Who flies without wings

Then the reality stabs
And my smile wavers
My vision starts to blur
I look down unaffected

You dont exist
Maybe you never did
Even though we understood each other
There still this unburied distance

I used to be so happy
Just by exchanging a few words
But now,  you have become
Just another stranger?

I keep on telling

Repeating to myself

You dont exist

Maybe you never did...

The further you go

At the time you held my hand, I was still so very young...
I still remember how I would chase you around as I called after you, desperately

You might not have given me much,
But I assembled them together as gifts to me.

How I recall that as the wind laughed, so too did you laugh.
But it was all a dream…

All I really wanted was to just be with you

To look after you ….

In every second of every minute, I want to see you,
And so I’ve searched for every fragment of my cherished star...
In every minute of every hour, loving thoughts still come to me,
So the further you go, the further I’ll reach out for that passing dream

Since that time, countless summers have come to pass 
With the blossoming and withering sunflowers,
And as much as I’ve been touched by a hint of love countless times, 
I’ve also cried countless tears.


In every second of every minute, I still long to see you,
A time has gone, yet the shades of the cry-baby you knew still remains.
In every minute of every hour, I continue to look for you,
And so the farther you go, the farther I will stretch towards that transient dream.

And if anyone were to ever forget your name,
I will stay here, ever shouting it out.
So although you are no longer here and the world continues to turn,
So long as I am here, you will always live to see tomorrow.

In every second of every minute, I keep on wishing to see you,
I have seen the light in fullest flare which I wanted to share..
Watching as I’ve grown beyond your years, I wonder what you think of me?
Know that the further you go, the further my hand extends towards that momentary dream.

...The further you go, the further my hand extends towards that fleeting dream that was ours...

I miss

Sometimes I feel so happy,
Sometimes I feel so sad.
Sometimes I feel so happy,
But mostly you just make me mad

If it makes me happy
It can't be that bad
If it makes me happy
Then why the hell am I so sad

I'm with everyone and yet not
Got to get away from here
I miss the one that I love a lot
I miss the one that I love a lot. 

By the moonlight

By the light of the moon,
In the blue blue sky
I m captured by sweet, faint and heavy things
It happens often, not just tonight

Underneath the moonlight, without anyone knowing
I was humming a tune to myself;
I searched for a life forever
Within this light.

Always, always by my side
I feel a power
That I believe
Moves the distant and fragile things

Underneath the moonlight, without anyone knowing
I hummed softly to myself,
I have faith in the silent night,
Within this light.

On nights when I feel I cant grasp anything,
The silence roars in my ears
But without a singe flicker
The moon continues to gaze at me, quietly.

Underneath the moonlight, without anyone knowing
I was humming softly to myself
My lost heart will find a home
Within this light.

Reason for living

I live and yet I do not,
I wait as my life turns to rot
I watch as the time passes by...
I live because I do not die.

About me....

I've fallen to an unknown place,
Where darkness surrounds me with solitude and space
There's no one there to pull me back,
I took one more straw which broke my back,

This hurts so much, the way I feel,
These horrible wounds will just not heal.....

I fight, I lay, I struggle and strain
Do whatever it takes to kill the pain
I walk, i am fine and I am smiling
I really dont care whether Iam dying

Its never enough, whatever I do;
My fate catches up to tear me in two
It might be, that I'll become numb
Tinkling laughter turned fake and mum

But eventhough, even if I might break
I'll pull myself up with a stronger make

Coz, there's a fire within me, that burns a bit more each day,
I wont let go and I want to say,
That I have won this,with my demons cast back,
And the Light will follow to banish the Black.

Waiting for a miracle

When you've fallen on life’s highway
and you're lying in the rain,
and they come and ask you how you're doing
of course you'll say I can't complain

You might be falling apart
but that's when you've got to play it dumb;
You just say you're out there waiting,
waiting for the miracle to come.